I’ve experienced a lot of transitions as my life continues to transform, and I’m trying to find a balance between my energy, dreams, and actions. I recognize now that I’ve been in a highly reactive state for several years. My story, familial, community, and universal traumas have made me hyperaware of my surroundings, and I’ve spent much of the time with an overactive sympathetic nervous system. My entire being has been in an acute stress mode, which increased with the global pandemic. Singapore is a breath of fresh air. I’m finally beginning to relax and enjoy everything in the moment. My heart is filled with joy and gratitude for the genuine care and concern that the team at AST expresses towards me. I am shown respect as an expert in my field, and they have reserved quality time for my well-being and artistic pursuits. Being in Singapore as a Fulbrighter is truly a once-in-a-lifetime experience.
To reset, I have a routine in theory (works in progress) and spend time every day holding myself accountable. It’s a simple routine but requires the daily retraining of my mind and body to be more productive and present. I try to get at least six hours of sleep to reset my circadian rhythm, and on awakening I say thank you as a complete prayer. I’m working on practicing the four agreements, especially in my daily interactions with other people and express gratitude. I take the time to meditate every morning and night, even if my mind is all over the place. I journal and write words of affirmations on post-it notes everyday to keep myself motivated and centered. All of these things: my journal, movement studies, sleep cycle, even this blog are a part of the process for this new journey that I’m on and serve as artifacts for my life and Fulbright Inquiry Project.